I am an interesting young womyn who bores herself to delirium.
And a comedian who cant tell a joke. I am a responsible sister and a helpful daughter.
I love to be me and yet I am different around others. I am extremely emotional but want to hide my feelings.
I have a hard time trusting some and put too much trust into others. this leads to hurt feelings and total vulnerability.
I want to be vulnerable but it makes me feel weak. I want to feel weak but no one wants to care for me.
I want to care for those I love and want them to care for me more. I never believe anyone can love me as much as I do them.
I want to take care of people but don't want them to need me. I am too clingy and never see friends and family.
I am a complete idiot but an intelligent person. I am lacking education. I have no communication skills and I am a good listener.
I am a good listener who hates to hear people speak. I am a reader who watches way too much TV.
I am a good friend and girlfriend but I have few friends and no boyfriend. I am open and bold but hold my tongue when I'm hurt.
I put people in their place and yet others walk all over me. I try too hard and yet do nothing at all.
I am a procrastinator but I am always early. I help and help and help, and get nothing in return.
I am not where I would like to be and want to be so much further. I am very opinionated and yet know nothing about the world.
I know where I want to go but I am confused. I know what I want but I am confused. I know how I feel but I am confused.
I know what I mean but I confuse myself. I am boring and fun, and innocent and cruel. I am trusting. I am always here.
I am always there. I am always needed. I am loved and hated. I am admired. I am spiteful but not jealous.
I am very jealous. I am scared of everything. My face shows bravery. I am angry. I am in love.
I am confused again... Honestly, I am too much to put into words.
- - Erica Arenas, Fed Up Honey